Woman has 9,999 warm fluffy fuzzy huggy sweet loving comments on her blog, alway s commenting in the affirmative, in the same similar lock step of dictatorial denial, mannerisms and language buried in souls forgotten long ago,  "my isn't life, so wonderful" even while deleting messages to the contrary,  in retaliation warm "fuzzy love" get deleted,  it all feels lovely lovely lovely wonderful, isn't life all so wonderful, what where how do I do I know I haven't died and gone to heaven? Where am I going, where has I been? Always succeeeding  (where others fail) wearing rose colored glasses, shades by which the world life is fine, no problems,  a "Big Muff, Fuzz box" it worked well great, WOW! Excuse me while kiss and die!while I drink and die, and smoke, a cigarettee, oh oh the pain, the healing, the suffering, the regret, it is no accident that so many say one day at a time, guzzling the shame, in a stupor standing on the top of iron skyscrappers, I see the world, with nothing but a thin steel beam beneath me, oh babe it hurts, oh babe cause babe, I got you babe but babe,  there there look there is love babe but it ain't me. Undoubtedly scary I look down and see the earth, but above me only sky, Undoubtedly this is a secret, a barrage and attack.